Too much, too little

Driving up to my parents' place in northwestern NSW yesterday, my head was working overtime - so much to do; how was I going to get the time to do it all?  And so tired; I had to take four rest breaks to ensure I got there safely.

My husband's right: I go at things like a bull at a gate, no half measures.  But that's just me - I do the best I'm capable of whenever I take on a project or commitment. If it's worth doing, it's worth doing well.  And I have trouble saying "No", I take on too much, and end up mentally and physically worn out.  It's not like I'm working and trying to take on other roles - I'm not in the workforce - life should be a breeze for me.  But it's not.  Maybe I'm just getting old.  My head doesn't feel old (except for the odd bout of forgetfulness), but I'm slowing down.

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OK, I need a solution.  I spent so many years under-achieving, not even trying, and now that I've discovered I have potential to contribute and achieve, I guess I'm trying to make up for lost time - get all I can out of life.

Rather than do less, perhaps I could manage my time better.  I need to establish a routine, and stick to it - not rigidly, but with the knowledge that if I was more organised and adhered to priorities, I could get more done without skimping on important things.

I'm easily side-tracked - and I'm a bit of a procrastinator.  OK, I'm pretty big on the procrastination.  There's a Singing Honeyeater in the Grevillea just out from my window right now, busily sticking it's head in the red flower spikes, and there's a Willie Wagtail complaining noisily that the bird bath is shamefully low in water, and if I allow myself to be distracted, like I do, I'll never finish this blog entry in the time I have. When Mum gets up from her nap, there'll be things to attend to, so I must stick to the plan at  hand.

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Lists.  My other half is always encouraging me to make lists.  And again, I know he's right.  I don't know why I resist.  So, my time management strategy (to start with) will be to make lists, prioritise - keep my list in view, cross items off, and celebrate with a little free time or time-wasting when everything's done.

OK, I'm  happy with that, and I'm really going to make an effort.  Right now, I'm going to make Mum a cup of tea, and fill the bird bath.